A blog of my feelings…ranging from commenting about other's blogs to commenting about stuff which happens in life and from posting mails which I like, to ranting on stuff.

I wonder who brought about this word “misconceptions” into the English Dictionary! Probably, there were no misconceptions earlier. Or they might be, but the misconceptions were not highlighted earlier.

Whatever it might be, lemme think why there is a misconception? Does this mean that there was supposed to be a conception that was missed? If so, why was it missed? Ain’t this similar to a miscarriage? This means that the parties involved in the conception were healthy, but due to some unfortunate circumstance, it so happened that the conception got missed. WTH??

Wait a sec… How could I have a misconception about the term itself? Miscarriage might happen due to some medical reasons and if misconception happens, the carriage itself might not be there to have the misconception! And misconception would be due to the simple use of some protection, be it of data or be it of anything else.. Oh Jeez.. how much similar is the misconception that happens wrt the physical being to that of a communication. My thoughts are now going haywire.. Need to get them back to why I started this blogpost. Yes, Misconceptions!

Misconceptions are a dime a dozen in normal life, but in my life, it is a bit too obvious. Or may be, I tend to notice it and make it a bit too pronounced that there has been a misconception. There have been umpteen numbers of situations where there was a misconception and that has led to unwanted arguments which then, led into some situations ending up with me and the other person not being able to even face one another coz of Ego Issues. We would not like to apologize, the reason being that we would have the fear that if we apologize, it might so happen that it might be my mistake that I am apologizing for and it might also seem that I have made a mistake, which is normally not so.

Lemme start my rant by giving a small and insignificant example.

A friend who was really close stops being in contact suddenly. And it so happens that our last interaction was not our usual friendly interactions and, though none of us had made any mistake, there was a mutual assumption about the other person. So, this was a misconception. Now, where has it led to is the part that worries me the most. I have not sent an apology per se, but I have taken the first step to get back in touch by sending messages and mails. However, there is no response from my friend yet. Now, what does my friend expect? An apology? For no mistake of mine? And since I have already taken the first steps, should it not be human for my friend to respond? It might be so that my friend might be very busy or might feel that I am not a part of their life or might be ill or might be held up with something. But the misconception that I have in my mind is that I might have actually lost this friendship, which was once really nice.

The reason that I have always referred to this person as “my friend” is that it is not only one friend but this has actually happened five times with five different friends. So, this also makes me assume and think that I have made the mistake coz 5 different people might not be wrong about the same person (me). This also makes me think that it might be the circumstances that caused this and that they would definitely realize my (right) intentions and get back in touch with me.

I hope my friend reads this on my Twitterfeed / FB / Google Reader / Buzz and realizes that it shows the pain that I am undergoing due to the misconception / lack of communication and gets back in touch with me.

Another aspect in life where I have to strive hard that there is no misconception ever is my career / daily bread earning part. I am in a customer facing role which has a direct revenue impact to my employers. Since this is such an important role, I do not want any misconception creeping into the minds of anyone who is a stakeholder (be it my customer or be it my employers or be it my team or be it any third party). If there is any minor misconception, it would wreck havoc in my career and I don’t want myself to face what I had faced a couple of months back.

A third angle to this is also coz of my age. Damn! Now, everyone is looking at me to be of the age of marriage and this makes it a lot difficult to even interact with any friend of the other gender, no matter if she is unmarried or married or even has a kid. The thoughts that stray into their minds are highly unethical and cannot be posted on my blog. The everyone, whom I am referring to here, include friends, family members, distant relatives, colleagues, ex colleagues and whomever I have ever interacted with. At times, I wonder if it is really worth listening to them or even paying heed to their thoughts, but then, I realize that “Man is a social animal”. Though you do not need to live for the sake of the society, it is always advised that you live for yourself keeping the society in one corner of your mind. It is also always advised that “Live Life Kingsize”, but keep in mind that the King too, has a lot of stakeholders to please.  But you know when it hurts the most? Coz when you were royally flirting and interested in all these mundane things like marriage and relationships and were willing to enter long term relationships, none of your stakeholders even bothered about you or your intentions. Now, you are in the spotlight and whatever you do, it is being looked at through a microscope. WTH?

I did some analysis of my persona w.r.t misconceptions and discovered that telephone conversations are the main reasons for whatever misconceptions that have happened in my life till date. At times, even if they are not the main reasons, they would add as a catalyst to the already bubbling concoction of misconceptions and would escalate matters out of control. Is this coz I might not be able to speak on telephone as convincingly as I would do in person? Or is it that the external noise that happens during the telephone conversation hampers and adds fuel to the fire of the misconception? Whatever it is, it does not make me feel comfortable to have a telephone conversation.

Thanks to my job, I have the good fortune of being able to meet 1000s of people and interact with them, something that I’ve always wanted to do. God has been fair so far… with me, and so has life. Just praying that it continues to be so green and fruitful and worthy of living it KINGSIZE!

I had a tumultuous time in the past couple of months. Probably life came full circle for me then. Whatever had happened, probably happened for the good only. I have had a very wonderful new year so far and I consider myself lucky for my current situation in life. I had even wondered if all the decisions that I took in life were worth it or not, but then, I also discovered a lot of things that I probably had never noticed earlier.

1. I have quite a lot of well wishers who try desperately to help me (or atleast, show to the world that they are helping me)
2. Amongst these well wishers, there are just a few people who are actually trying to help you and guide you in your endeavors and they are worried for your future as much as they would be for their own – It is this group that I can be proud of and can call them as Friends.
3. For a few people, your bad time is more to their happiness and they would be secretly happy that you are in the situation that you were in, and at times, they would not even bother to hide their happiness in front of you. These are the people that you had considered friends during some or the other stage in life.

Now, the above things are those that made me ponder about the “help” of social networking. Enough of rants, let me move from the negatives to the positive.

I joined a company which was, is and hopefully, remains my kinda place to pursue my passions. I would not be interested to work in a place which is for employment and for a job, it should be something that I can associate my deepest desires with, and this place is one of them. I get to meet a lot of people, exchange thoughts and ideas and then, travel a lot.

When 2010 dawned, something dawned upon me too.. and that, IMHO, was the power of rational thoughts. I realized that everyone has their own logic to back their actions and it would just be fair to think from their point of view and not remain yourself and have misunderstandings / assumptions leading to something else. So, there was a new Suksy who was born then.

With the new Suksy came in new challenges and opportunities and it made it worthwhile to have undergone those tumultuous times during the last weeks of 2009. In fact, a long time ambition of mine, to visit North India, came true in an unexpected way. I took my first flight, went to North India, stayed at a resort near Manesar, made some amazing friends, had some equally amazing meetings, trainings, sessions, fun and masti and did not realize that I had spent a week without even stepping out of the resort. When the time came to step out of the resort, we did not have time to spend on anything else. We could not visit Delhi, and I could not visit even a book stall to buy a book. I have actually pissed off a couple of friends in Delhi to whom, I had given an assurance that I would be meeting them in their hometowns. I am sorry folks… There is definitely going to be a next time.

I have transformed into a pukka sales manager and forget the designation or the actual “work” I am supposed to do, I am doing evangelism of technology in education. Education is a field that I was always interested in, and getting this opportunity to evangelize it, is more like a dream come true. Thanks to my current employers for making this dream come true. It is always told that where lies your passion, lies your best efforts and where you put your best efforts, the world recognizes u.

As Baba Rancchoddas Chancchad mentions: “Don’t run behind success, run behind excellence. Once you achieve excellence, success will automatically come to you”. So true.. right?

All izz well!!!